By toes_23
2/8/2010 9:22:47 PM
Day 360. Not too shabby.

I sat down with my husband about a week ago and had a heart to heart. We both confessed to each other that we had been doing really well with our addiction, but also both agreed that the habits in our home are more conducive to the Telestial world that we live in. I told him that I felt that changes needed to be made, and quickly, if I wanted to salvage my weakening testimony and weakening relationship with the Lord. Being busy is not a good reason for being sober. Being "good" is no longer good enough.

It wasn't a surprise to me that I was standing still on an "up" escalator. Weeks before the talk with my husband I had registered for an institute class on campus. Book of Mormon studies. I have been slacking on the "small" things for months and my testimony had taken a BIG hit. I still know the church is true, I still know that Christ atoned for my sins. Which is exactly why I knew that something needed to change.

I joke casually about drinking alcohol or coffee, I got married pretty young and had never had the "chance" to be naughty. I've always been a "good" mormon girl. The 300 plus days of being free from my sexual addiction had me thinking about other vices to cope with the stresses of life. I will even admit I had the smallest sip of coffee (promptly spitting it out with thoughts like "EW. How on earth can people drink this disgusting... ew.ew..ew..ew). That is when I realized that there is no grey, and I wasn't in the white.

With a firm commitment to do the "Little things" I started making goals for myself. Daily prayer and scripture study have been a must, to pray for the teacher and to feel the spirit in my institute class, to pray for my little Sunbeam class and to have the ability to know what to say to bring the spirit into our classroom and their lives, to start trusting the Lord again, to stop focusing on worldly things (I love shoes...). The list continues, but they are basically the things we've been taught to do all our lives.

The prophets are RIGHT! The little things DO matter! This is the first time in my life where I have seen my testimony fall into shambles because I haven't been doing the "small things". I have recommitted. I have felt His love for me while praying, and reading. I know my Savior loves me. I know the scriptures can bring me joy.



Small and Simple Things    
"Hurrah! Oh, Toes, it's nice to hear from you again. And, although you admit you have a long way to go and a lot of small things to do (don't we all!?!), it's very good to hear you recommitting and trying to keep your baptismal covenants. I'm so happy. I will pray, as you are praying, for your heart to be softened with regards to your bishop, whom I will pray is just trying to help.

"Now ye may suppose that this is foolishness in me; but behold I say unto you, that by small and simple things are great things brought to pass; and small means in many instances doth confound the wise." (Alma 7:36)

Read your scriptures daily, alone and with your husband. Pray daily alone and with him. Have family home evening and attend church every week. Attend the temple every month. In my experience, these simple things help us to put God first, so that everything else we are trying to do (like overcome Satan) will work out.

You are on the right track, and that makes me smile. Thank you!"
posted at 22:32:00 on February 8, 2010 by BeClean
"Good for you Toes! Keep up the good work! Thanks for the reminder that the little things are BIG time important. I know that when I stop doing the little things, I can feel it. I'll recommit with you! I have been pretty good at reading my scriptures lately (sometimes I do it just to do it)...but tonight, I will do it with more gratitude. Thanks Toes!"
posted at 18:33:28 on February 11, 2010 by summer

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"The Savior teaches that we will have tribulation in the world, but we should "be of good cheer" because He has "overcome the world". His Atonement reaches and is powerful enough not only to pay the price for sin but also to heal every mortal affliction… He knows of our anguish, and He is there for us. Like the good Samaritan in His parable, when He finds us wounded at the wayside, He binds up our wounds and cares for us. Brothers and sisters, the healing power of His Atonement is for you, for us, for all. "

— Dallin H. Oaks

General Conference October 2006